When I lived in Lawrence, Kansas, my windows had several sheets and a giant University of Kansas blanket covering them. Right now when I wake up two windows are letting me enjoy the sunrise for the first time in years. For those of you who know me this seem very out of character I am not a big fan of morning, afternoon, or even the day for that matter. This morning however, I got out of bed to go visit the campus of the University of Kansas. I found out that I get my diploma for my Master?s in Public Administration in the middle of July. The real reason that I made the trip up to campus was to meet with my advisor. I can honestly say that my advisor is an individual, who has taken the time, to show me nothing but kindness. While I did not learn anything significantly new, like where I am going, or where I will be, in the next few months. I think I know have a general sense of direction.
One of the problems with expanding notes into a draft is that sometimes the draft focuses on the original note text. I am so close to being done with the draft, however parts of it that are referring to lecture notes read as if they are opinions. This sounds out of place since the speakers are not interested in pure free market economics and the general prose of the piece is focusing on exactly that issue. It will be done tonight or tomorrow, then you will never have to worry about falling asleep again, because the newest edition of my writing will be sure to cure insomnia.
Censorship is a terrible thing and witnessing it first hand is a very refreshing look at society. I have been working on this draft for the last couple of days it is currently about twenty pages single spaced. I hope that the draft will be completed by tomorrow morning. I believe it is important to be able to write down everything and then synthesize. The best way to see the bigger picture is to be able to read the details and then take a step backward to fill in the gaps. It is so important that people take the time to write down exactly what is going on in China, because without a free press the only way the real story will be told is if people who are lucky enough to have a free press make sure that the story gets out. Taiwan is a flourishing self-sufficient democracy, Tibet deserves religious freedom, and in 1989, the student protests in Tiananmen Square were really put down by tanks. We cannot ignore facts, because they are not part of the worldview endorsed by the Peoples Republic of China.
i woke up this morning at a time that is not natural. the clock said 5am and i was wide awake as if time had changed. my life mostly occurs when the sun is down, not when the sun is still down from the night before. china is a strange and wonderful place, full of tons of green tea and of course instant coffee. you would think with a country of over one billion people they would have figured out the joys of real coffee beans. i know of them. i know of them well. of late nights without karaoke bars. which are one of the most disturbing things i have ever seen. the room seems to grow smaller as you sit around and memorize the patterns on the walls. watching espn is nice until they start the cycle over again, for a moment i feel powerful since i know what they will be saying next. then all of a sudden i am annoyed by the repetative nature of the whole process. i bought a book at the store. i wrote some stream of thought text at the airport. i got really board and looked for somebody to converse with. i found nobody of any value and at the same time i am certain that i was judged as being of no value as well. who knows. writing in journals sucks. writing without a real keyboard is terrible. small keyboards are the devil. reading what nels writes without spell check or a big enough screen to edit is also painful. who knows. maybe later i will have some fun. i have started spending more time on word choice in my two current drafts. one about china and the other a critical dissent essay about the nature of prefernce. i dare not post them together on this journal. andy will mock me while at teh same time reminding me of how boring i tend to be. andy is secretly angry that i am not playing baseball or softball this summer. well maybe it is not a secret anymore it is simply somethign that i believe. while china smells bad from time to time. since well it honestly stinks most of the time. i can say that FAS smells worse. i mean that with all honesty i do not know how the stench of one can surpass the waste of one billion, yet i hold this to be true. i fear it to be fact, and at the same time all airports look the same. what do i know? 1) being is the essence of nothing. 2) nothingness is essential to existence. 3) my essistence is not essential to the essence of nothingness. regardless of my existence nothingness would still be nothingness. andy would still like baseball. the FAS would drink pitchers. hmm, now i am hungry… why can i never find a taco bar when i need one!
it will take me a couple of days to transform my notes into prose. of course it will then take me several additional days to turn that prose into readable form. i hope to see you all soon in the next couple of days. my days of being a guest of the PRC are over. i was on the news several times in china. i will tell you all about it in my next post. i have several ideas i am working out at the moment.
today i am taking a bus to a place they say is between heaven and earth. in china everything is about suffering and tbe good of the many over the few so they make things up to make themselves feel better about life. so they say this silk city i am about to travel on a bus to see is between heaven and earth. i am not sure if this is an honestly held belief or if the the people just want to see tshirts to funny tourists that they think have to much money.
sometimes i wonder what is going on in this town. nothing is really as it seems. for a paraniod person like myself this is the perfect place to hear the footsteps, because they really are listening. i wonder what they think of my personal publishing system! well i am off to the Fudong university today to talk with some peoples. should be a good trip. i am at a new hotel it is much better than the last one. i have kept very good notes of this adventure and will put them together into a quality story when i return to the states. china is not ready for the satire of nels, just yet…
So today I am going to the Forbidden City, Tiananmen Square, and the Temple of Heaven. I am actually rather excited, yesterday we were on national television a couple of times. I am not sure what they said about us because the hotel is having some television problems on the local channels: they have been turned off. Go figure state run television is not a free press. Jen you are of course right I cannot view my web page anymore I can only type in the address to post things. Today should be fun.
what a fun day. i ran to the top of the great wall of china. that is 1.6 miles. in fact i did not really fun i sort of walked. it is up hill you know! ok, fine, if you insist, i was pulled up the hill. (by two people, one of which carried my backpack.) it was a good time and i am ready to get some BBQ, PIZZA, and of course some TACO’s. i now know why fat people do not live in china. it is really hard to manage to eat enough to gain weight! i am thinking of all of you and hope that you are all doing really well. i am not sure why, but i wake up everyday at sunrise and then am tired all day. go figure!
i hope everybody is doing well. i am in beijing it is a great place. it feels like a city that has been built to make tourists feel like china is modern. i am writing everything down and will put it up on the internet when i get back. this is just live update news to inform everybody that i am still alive. i am having a good time. they have not fed me any fish yet so i am still alive. we are going to the us embasy today should be a good time. the highlight of my day is when i find a nice can of COKE. they prices vary from like 60 cents a liter to 3 bucks a can. i swear you never know what is going on. well i will talk to you all later. my internet time is about to expire.