I have never really had anything against hackers, but these days it seems that people are getting restless on the internet. Who knows? Maybe Nels Lindahl Dot Com has become a major interest to the digital elite. Well comment spammers beware! I have now implemented a system that requires comment approval. Maybe that will solve the problems that I was having, while resolves the problems I am having. In any event, the webpage is backup and running. I will make some changes in the next couple of days to make sure that all of the content is available. Of course, it will be another couple of weeks before all of the writing is back online. I hope that with some database revisions I will be able to get some of the novels fixed. Oh yeah, I am now back from Mexico.
Some days are better than others, without question, every once in awhile a day stumbles by that is changes things. My outlook on life is simple, I have no fear of life and at the same time I have no fear of death. For some people this is a difficult mantra to uphold. One of the things that I want to accomplish over the next couple of months is putting down some of my policy statements to paper. Who knows maybe one or two of them might end explaining the future.
It is strange to say this, but I really miss the University of Kansas Public Administration class of 2005. Normally I do not really get attached to people very easily. Somehow, the class was endearing in a very eclectic way. I have been around such a diverse set of individuals who were all motivated by study, but for different reasons. It is easy for a stranger to figure out that I have a love for education for the sake of education.
One of the problems with my never-ending desire for education is that over the years, I seem to dissent more and more. When you think of the voice of dissent in modern America it is easy to list off authors like Chomsky. For some reason the country seems to be moving away from my visions of a functional utopia. Who knows what is really going on in the world these days? Well just a couple days until I leave for Mexico? I think I am going to go swim suit shopping tomorrow.
My humblest apologizes worthy reader, if you have been checking this page, and not found anything new to read. This last year has gone by so fast. From starting a second college degree in the midst of a very serious relationship to learning that, I could graduate in only one year. Well I now have two degrees and I left so much behind to sacrifice for my education. I did not spend enough time with all of my friends, and alas, I had several failed relationships during the last year. It happens I know that. I am not worried about the future.
This was actually the month, where I was going to give up my pursuits of higher education, and spend all of my time working on a computer program. However, things change, just as they always do, and for some reason probably always will. I have been enjoying my summer with reckless abandon. From spending my mornings at the country club, sipping beverages and getting slightly tan. I made some poolside phone calls, to Andy ?Blue? O?MacPhelan, during the course of my very busy day.
Of course, I have to take time out to note that Gus has returned from Australia. Gus went to Australia with a small amount of love for the Kangaroo a creature that is observed with a certain degree of reverence throughout the world. When Gus returned from Australia, Kangaroos were no longer acceptable; they became a pesky rodent like creature, that simply does not belong. Who do those Australians think they are? Besmirching the good name of the Kangaroo? This newfound hatred of such a loveable creature causes me to be able to seriously question what they have been drinking down under.
What is the most powerful possession that you own? I would argue that it is your library card. If you are lucky enough to have one, without so many fines that, you cannot check out books. The Johnson County Public Resource Library happened to have three books on the subject I was interesting in researching. A long time ago, I gave up a dream, to continue my education. I was working on a program that came to be known as Captain Fractal. My parents have been gracious enough to allow me to work on this program in the comfort of my childhood home.
Jaccie asked about why I do not write prolifically now that I have so much spare time. The answer is that I have been spending all of my spare time working on this program. Thinking about higher order mathematics takes so much out of me that I do not have very much energy to put the prose floating around the abstract corners of my mind onto paper. I hope that is a legitimate answer to the question. If I can finish this program fairly soon, then I will as a happy as a farmer, standing in middle of a field of tall cotton.
I have been having some trouble coding the algorithms. Of course I am programming in LISP, which is, more fun than I can possible convey in words. I actually went back to basics, and have taken some of the slightly yellow-paged books, off the library shelf and brought them home with me. The only three books the public library had on programming in LISP were very out of date; evidence of this can be taken from the proudly shelved books about unlocking the power of your 1980?s commodore! I am now reading some slightly older books, about LISP, and of course learning more about writing code!
1) Laurent Siklossy. “Let’s Talk LISP,” Prentice-Hall, NJ, 1976. 237 pages.
2) Robert Wilensky. “Common LISPcraft” W. W. Norton, 1986. 500 pages.
3) Harold Abelson, Gerald Jay Sussman, Julie Sussman. ?Structure and Interpretation of Computer Programs? (MIT Electrical Engineering and Computer Science) MIT Press, 1986. 542.
Think about this for just a moment? nobody has highlighted, underlined, or made any notes in any of these books. It has been a long time since this college student has seen a collection of books from the library that do not have some type of extended student added annotations. The library keeps detailed records about library fines and made me pay $3.20 for a book I had returned late somewhere around the turn of the centenary. Well back to work!
I have decided that we should send Michael Moore to China for a state sponsored tour. Perhaps capitalism tastes better after eating with a communist spoon. I was reading the propaganda of the state sponsored Chinese mass media source, otherwise known as the People?s Daily. What shocked and appalled me was how excited the Chinese are about importing, ?Michael Moore’s provocative anti-Bush documentary ?Fahrenheit 9/11.?” The state sponsored media in a communist country wants to import this documentary to the Peoples Republic of China. Now is the time to take a step back and ask ourselves what is going on in the United States of America these days? If this is the first American documentary to play in China, then it is a sad day for freedom and choice everywhere.
Michael Moore you should stand up and apologize at the state level to governments around the world. Using documentary style film to spread propaganda, which is simply ideological, and has little to no basis in reality to countries that do not have a free press, is in all honesty simply embarrassing. Michael Moore you should be ashamed that ?Fahrenheit 9/11? is not addressing the realties about real crisis over the inevitable ideological conflict of the three T?s Taiwan, Tiananmen Square, and Tibet. Michael Moore does not know what real dissent is or what media persecution really feels like. Without a free press in China, the people are not fully aware of the realities facing the country. Michael Moore is definitively a participant in spreading a conspiracy theory to a country conspiring to mislead one billion people.
I call on you Michael Moore to use celebrity to face the major issue facing the world today. Without question, terrorism is a serious issue that it is not receiving honest public discussion. For freethinking rational autonomous thinkers everywhere today is a very dark day. Discussion of terrorism blended with, ?Michael Moore’s provocative anti-Bush documentary ?Fahrenheit 9/11.?? Simply helps to spread the message the communist government of Peoples Republic of China finds to be consistent with state propaganda. Freethinking rational autonomous thinkers have to remember the three T?s Taiwan, Tiananmen Square, and Tibet and be willing to have honest discussions about what media censorship really means!
Recent Masters in Public Administration graduate from the University of Kansas seeking opportunity to learn about government. This is important to me because I hope to develop the financial security necessary to participate as a humanitarian and save for retirement in today?s ever-changing political and economic picture. I have a strong background in statistics, policy analysis, and work well with people. Well for those of you, who have been taking bets on when I would get a job the hunt is beginning. I have been filling out resume stuff online all day and putting in applications to federal agencies, the coast guard, and even just sending out inquiries.
My ideal job is set in an environment that experiences change, encourages learning, and is full of challenges and requires critical thought. Most of the jobs that are available look very good on paper yet are very far away from home. I have not really found any good jobs in the Kansas City area. Looks like I better get out my walking shoes. Last time I had a job I was working for the Lawrence-Douglas County Housing Authority in Lawrence, Kansas as the Administrative Intern. That was a good job. I mostly updated the webpage and did statistical analysis of different problem areas. Who knows maybe I should find a job doing election statistic or something similar.
One of the drawbacks of sitting around all day and filling out applications forms online is the constant repetition of the cable news channels. I hope you are enjoying life today! If you watched as much cable news as I have today, then you might already know that things blow up in Iraq, Michael Moore is intentionally inaccurate, and the United Nations really wants to resolve the Oil for Food scandals. (I have decided that we should send Michael Moore to China for a state sponsored tour. Perhaps capitalism tastes better after eating with a communist spoon.) People keep asking me about my experiences in China. That is why I took the time to write down my opinions before I talked with people. Faking Capitalism is uncensored Nels without interruption.
The last couple of days have fallen into a pattern that is both enjoyable and disturbing. I wake up in the morning when the sun rises, and then I work out for a while, either lifting weights or running. Afternoons are never serious occasions for critical thought and I have spent a fair number of them going to the country club and simply lounging around the pool. This is the first time in the last twenty-four years that I really do not have anything noteworthy to accomplish. My life is put simply rather mundane and it is a surprisingly enjoyable lifestyle. I find myself spending more, and more time thinking about the future.
On the bright side, I will be leaving for Cancun, Mexico in the middle of July. Two questions, that are very closely related, remain on the backburner. Will I find a PhD school anytime soon? If I do not find a PhD school how much time, will I have to look for a job? The first thing people ask you when they talk to you is about where you are either going to school or working. I enjoy asking a much simpler question, ?Are you happy?? Questions about life are more difficult to ask, because the answers are not very pleasant. I am in good spirits and getting in better shape everyday.
The most disturbing part of the whole process is that I am not writing at a frantic pace anymore. Faking Capitalism was a good start at the beginning of this summer, but with so much spare time, my production rate should be much higher. Who knows; maybe soul searching is a fulltime occupation?
Everything that is written and published bounces around the internet. What makes for good writing, besides, of course having a voice and being an astute grammarian? As a writer, you have to find something that is worth writing about and write about it in a way that is worth reading. This is an incredibly demanding style of writing, transcending simply making journal entries; this is information presentation and borders on entertainment.
Some blogs are simply journal entries of people?s lives that exist in a world of pure transparency on the Internet for everyone to read. These blogs are rare and involve an individual who is willing to say anything, about anybody, making private thoughts very public. Some blogers write fictional stories, theory, philosophy, critical essays, and of course dissenting pieces of literary prose. These are the type of weblogs that I personally like to think I associate with, but I know that this particular weblog is somewhat of a hybrid. I write both theoretical prose and prose about my life almost seamlessly at times. Weblogs that attempt to disseminate pure theory do well with certain groups of readers, but generally do not have as large of audiences of avid readers.
Personally, I like to read weblogs that share both the writer?s thoughts and develops a good understanding of what in the author?s life is influential. Of course, that is simply a note of personal preference. My weblog will be around as long as I am alive. I can honestly say that because it is both a forum of personal expression about my life and an avenue of information dissemination for my theories. Dissent, dissent, and yes more dissent will continue to be published by Nels Lindahl at Nels Lindahl Dot Com. Now back to the point of this some rant about weblogs? Why do some weblogs come and go? The answer is rather simply some people who only write in a pure journal style, will always have something to post about, it just might not be that interesting. Weblog authors who attempt to produce original thoughts and stories will burn out from time to time. Creatively speaking, writers tend to write in spurts.
Writers do not always acclimate to being at the center of an online forum. Being part of an online community is difficult to being with and when that community is full criticism, writing can become rather scary. For example, Mr. Borys says that my critical dissent about the Peoples Republic of China, titled ?Faking Capitalism,? is both long winded and exceptionally full of facts. Mr. Borys contends that a smaller version of the argument should be written for those who do not want to struggle through over 10,000 words on the subject. This is a civil and well articulated objection. Not all suggestions I receive are either well articulated or civil for that matter!
When I lived in Lawrence, Kansas, my windows had several sheets and a giant University of Kansas blanket covering them. Right now when I wake up two windows are letting me enjoy the sunrise for the first time in years. For those of you who know me this seem very out of character I am not a big fan of morning, afternoon, or even the day for that matter. This morning however, I got out of bed to go visit the campus of the University of Kansas. I found out that I get my diploma for my Master?s in Public Administration in the middle of July. The real reason that I made the trip up to campus was to meet with my advisor. I can honestly say that my advisor is an individual, who has taken the time, to show me nothing but kindness. While I did not learn anything significantly new, like where I am going, or where I will be, in the next few months. I think I know have a general sense of direction.
One of the problems with expanding notes into a draft is that sometimes the draft focuses on the original note text. I am so close to being done with the draft, however parts of it that are referring to lecture notes read as if they are opinions. This sounds out of place since the speakers are not interested in pure free market economics and the general prose of the piece is focusing on exactly that issue. It will be done tonight or tomorrow, then you will never have to worry about falling asleep again, because the newest edition of my writing will be sure to cure insomnia.